I have missed you, my lovelies,
I’ve had a lot of changes in my life over the last few months. The most significant one being the end of my 17 year marriage in September.
I’ve spent the last few months processing my feelings because while it was time for the relationship to come to an end it was still a very difficult thing to do.
The upside of endings is that they’re a window into new beginnings.
Many of you are aware that it has been my dream to live in California.
And now I am finally free to pursue that dream.
I’ll be moving from New York to Los Angeles at the end of this month.
I have fantasized about this for suc
h a long time that a part of me can’t believe it’s really happening.
But it is.
I am starting a new chapter in the place I’ve dreamed of living and I could not be more excited.
What’s been really interesting in this process is telling other people about what I’m doing and seeing their reaction. Whether they’re close friends or someone I just met—they have all had a similar response: they are totally excited for me, think it’s a great idea, and are slightly (some more than others) envious.
It’s that thing about fresh starts…
They’re really seductive.
The other response I’ve gotten across the board is that everyone says how brave it is.
And I believe that’s true.
It’s a huge undertaking to move myself, my dog and my business across the country and if there’s any part of me that wanted to take the easy way out and just not do it or postpone it, all I need to do is think about my 18 year old self and I’m reminded why I have to see this through.
New York City Here I Come
I moved into Manhattan right after I graduated High School to go to college.
I went to NYU and as soon as I stepped foot on that campus, I knew I wanted to get an apartment in the Village. The only problem was that I already had a rent controlled apartment on the Upper East Side.
My limited thinking told me that I wouldn’t be able to find something comparable to the space I had or that I might end up with horrible neighbors and regret giving up my situation.
So I stayed in that apartment on the Upper East Side even though I desperately wanted to live in the village.
I lived there for 18 long years.
I look back now and all I can say is, ‘what was I thinking?’
Why didn’t I just move?
I believe it’s the same reason I stayed in a marriage that was over a long time ago.
Fear of the unknown.
And so, in addition to making this move for all the reasons I want to make it, I’m also doing it for her.
My 18 year old self.
The one who felt stuck and powerless
The one who felt she didn’t have a choice.
The one who thought she just had to accept what life gives you
On Thursday, June 30t, I will load my belongings and my dog into my car and my friend Nanette and I will drive to California.
This dream has been with me for a long time.
“And the time came when the risk of staying tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” – Anais Nin
The good news is I’m taking you all with me.
I’ll be video taping all of it along with my arrival in the promised land 🙂
I will be sending out the videos that I can upload easily in my newsletters (no guarantee on that one). If you’d like to be sure to join my road trip then friend me on Facebook and you’ll get to see it broadcast on Facebook Live*
What desire are you harboring that you need to say YES to?
Wishing you YESES to all that’s for your highest and best.
*What is Facebook Live?
It’s live streaming video. If we’re friends on FB then my posts will show up in your newsfeed and so will my live videos which means you’ll be able to comment while I’m broadcasting and I’ll be able to talk back to you.
All you need to do is “friend me” and when I’m making a video it will show up in your newsfeed.